10 reasons why I hate spam email or 1 reason I secretly am grateful for it

I don't know how to write this without sounding like a total sap.

I checked my email and realised that my account had been spam attacked and was spewing the stuff to every contact in my address book. So I go through and start deleting all the emails until I came across one from my mum who I hadn't spoken to for over a month.

I guess the reason why I'm grateful is that after that awful argument this one stupid email has enabled us to communicate.

There's been things that have happened lately that I wanted to talk to my mum about. I may be 23 years old but I still rely on my parents a lot since they're the only people who truly know me and it's killed me not talking to her. You know for all the times I say my mum's not there for me, she was the one who sat up with me on the phone until silly o clock in the morning when I'd rung up in floods of tears because I'd just found out about the endo and I was terrified I wouldn't be able to have kids. I'm still terrified now but not to the extent I was back then.

I don't know if things will ever be the same again between us but it's nice to know she's there.

Rugby Fun

I have nothing that interesting to say at the moment so instead, here's a pic of me all psyched up to cheer on my boys at Headingly on Friday night. An average game really, both teams could have performed so much better but we got the result we wanted. Many best wishes and a speedy recovery to Chev Walker (ex leeds rhinos player, now plays for Hull KR) who was out of the match within the first 15 minutes with a fractured shin. THERE'S ONLY ONE CHEV WALKER!!!!

Just doing the vain girl thing...I hadn't really noticed until now how tired I look :s and I look slightly better in that pic since I have the war paint on.

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The definition of a Luddite

I googled the term luddite for a friend as she didn't know what it meant and found out it's origins. I never knew it dated back to the 1800's.

Luddite

1. A Luddite is a person who dislikes technology, especially technological devices that threaten existing jobs or interfere with personal privacy.
2. A Luddite is someone who is incompetent when using new technology.
The word Luddite has an interesting origin in pop culture of the early 1800's. Legend has it that a young man name Ned Ludd broke an expensive knitting machine in Nottingham, England. Because Ned was considered to be "feeble-minded" by his boss, he wasn't held financially responsible for the broken equipment. Afterwards, when factory equipment broke, the damage was always blamed on Ned Ludd.
During the Industrial Revolution, when factory workers organized to express their dissatisfaction with work conditions, the legend of Ned Ludd was politicized. One well-known method of protest was for workers to dress up in disguise and visit a factory owner late at night. The workers, claiming they had been sent by General Ned Ludd, demanded changes in the workplace. The invocation of Ned Ludd's name made it clear to the factory owner that if the demands weren't met, the owner's expensive machinery would be destroyed. The Luddites enjoyed a kind of Robin Hood reputation and the movement was generally supported by the public until a protest at a Lancashire mill went terribly wrong and several people were killed.

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Company mag article

As I blogged last month, myself and some friends were going to be in company magazine and now I'm using my laptop again (albeit very, very briefly) I thought it was time I uploaded the article.



I still fill up now reading it. I honestly would be lost without all of the sewer kittens. I had a discussion with a friend a few days back and I did forget how different the endo bond is in comparison to the friendships I've formed on another forum.

The sewer kittens will always be intricately linked because the endo affects us in a much, much different way. I can be brutally honest with those girls but I edit the truth a bit with the majority of my other friends. By that I mean I edit out a lot of the gory details. Hmmm, I try not to ponder on it all too much. As I said in my grievance meeting it is not good for my mental state to dwell on what could go wrong because it just upsets me.

I did the first half of my pass plus today. It was AMAZING!! Apart from the running through a red light and going at 85mph on the motorway that is. Next part is booked for next Saturday. Think we're covering Roundabouts (they still scare the shit out of me), rural roads, some more city driving and some more motorway driving.

Got a lot of stuff to do this week like writing my resignation letter, going to the bank, trying not to drool over my car too much, seeing my friend Rach and god knows what else will crop up.

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Random Video :P

Poor abandoned blog :'(

I can't believe I've abandoned my blog for almost a month!!

A hell of a lot has been going on though and it doesn't help that my laptop has been unusable since my last blog post either.

I really wish I had something exciting to report but I don't, oops!

The only real exciting news is I'll be getting my car in the next month depending on how long it takes for it to delivered and I'm doing the first half of my pass plus tomorrow so I'll be back behind the wheel.

It's officially heading towards winter now. The first game of the NFL season was on last night...bad times for me, good times for my dad!!

I've had a lot on my mind recently and things from last night have really added to them.

I could do without the emo bullshit, seriously! And there's other stuff I could do without but I'm not saying anything, here or anywhere else. I do wonder if this person realises the effects their words have had on someone whether they were serious or not. Did they not think about the consequences? Argh!! I'm gonna stop thinking about this all again because it really makes my head hurt.

Happy things - Leeds Rhinos look to be finishing this season top of the league and get the league leaders shield for this season, well done boys!!!

Please be warned that driving on the roads in Leeds between 2pm and 5pm tomorrow is a very, very bad idea, hehe!!

I'm a ray of fucking sunshine at the moment...no really!!! I'm wondering which lovely person is gonna come along and make my weekend worse.

You know when you say you're stressed out although you're never quite there. You never manage to hit the point where you can't breath, your heart is gonna beat its way out of your chest and you have tears pouring down your face. Well I've hit that point.

Yeah, I know...sounds like I'm been dramatic but I have genuinely reached that point of no return. I'm barely sleeping, panicky, emotional and on a train heading for stress city.

I'm lying to my friends. The usual, yeah course I'm fine, nothing can knock me down but this has. Not only have I had a blow to my career, I feel like they've punched a great big whole through who I am and I really don't know if I can put myself back together again.

I've been made to feel that getting my head down and doing my job is the wrong thing to do. I ended up sobbing my heart out on my best friends shoulder on friday night because of them. They've made me feel every bugger in the office has been talking about me behind my back.

They've made me feel the endo is all my own fault and it's all in my head. I don't spend roughly two days a month barely able to walk, carry stuff or spaced out on painkillers to the extent I can't concentrate and making a cup of tea is one of the hardest tasks in the world.

No...it's all made up and it's all bullshit. I don't have a letter from my consultant after first lap detailing the extensive endo they found. I don't have to fill my body with artificial hormones for 21 days at a time to try and slow the disease that could ultimately stop me from conceiving.

So here I am, unemployed unofficially, stressed out and treated like shit. Yeah I must have pissed someone off...