4am moment of clarity

I've just had a moment of clarity and done something that's made me happier than I thought it would. I've just deleted a hell of a lot of messages from someone I thought I loved.

If you read this, thank you for the impact you had on my life last year but that chapter of my life is closed now. I'd like to say I'll always look back and be happy when I remember stuff but all those months it dragged on where we did nothing but argue will always taint the happy memories. Maybe one day we'll be 'real' friends again but until then, good luck...and leave all us poor women alone, you're a menace ;) You know I love you and part of me always will. In the mean time I'll be stealing your best friend every so often for a good gossip in Starbucks :D xxxx

Guv Love

I'm ashamed of myself. The one thing from my top weekend in London I forgot and so I'm not mentioning now is I sat on the Gene Genies knee...*melts into a huuuuge puddle of girl goo* Good Times :D

You know when you need to get something off your chest but the words just won't come out? Well I've just attempted to type something four times now and it just isn't coming out right at all.

Maybe I need to clear my head and then it will just come out. Thing is the person who I'd talk to is the one person I can't talk to right now.

Anyway...enough of that.

Went out for dinner with my Grandma and Dad tonight. It was fun. Casa Mia Grande is the modern day equivalent to Luigi's...well I think it is. You've got the Champagne Bar that leads into the restuarant. I don't know if they do Bolly at the bar, I've not looked ;) but I'd be more than happy to go and investigate. Who fancies coming with?

Bit worried about someone but I hope they know if they need to talk to get in touch. In fact there's a few people I'm worried about at the moment. January seems to be a very black month at the moment.

Sending love & hugs to my darlings who need them

xx

I can't sodding well sleep...AGAIN!!! I should be knackered after the weekends antics but I'm not...Grrrrrrrrr!! head/keyboard!!!!

Hmph, not a happy bunny!

I'm wondering if anyone reads my blog...no-one ever comments on it :(

I've done sweet f.a today and I was so tempted to open a bottle of house rubbish then realised I can't drink because of my snexy new tattoo.

Got dinner tomorrow night with my dad and grandma...oh deep joy.

I was planning on spending the day in bed with chick flicks...nay mind

xx

Forgot to blog this earlier....my dad told me my tattoo isn't quite central...bastard!

He's worse than Gil Hollis trying to line is sling up with his bandages.

Off to sleep now...can barely keep eyes open. If anyone wants to come snuggle me my address is..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

My back hurts :( Don't remember it hurting this much last time I had a tattoo done but...it is in a place where it bleeds out. Which I didn't know. Hence the panic in Casa Mia of 'Oh God, my tattoo is leaking...what do I do?!'

It's all good fun tho!

Awww, someone's just said to me I have a lovely voice which was random and very sweet!

I should go bathe my tattoo and consider going to bed but I'm very comfy sat listening to music and trying to sort my head out with the help of the lovely Miss Munts :)

Which has reminded me, I need to book the hotel for her 30th in February. Can't wait to be reunited with my dirty sewer kittens, love them all to bits.

I'm feeling really upbeat and happy today and I don't know why. Must be something in the tattoo ink lol!

xx

My new tattooo