I've just had a moment of clarity and done something that's made me happier than I thought it would. I've just deleted a hell of a lot of messages from someone I thought I loved.
If you read this, thank you for the impact you had on my life last year but that chapter of my life is closed now. I'd like to say I'll always look back and be happy when I remember stuff but all those months it dragged on where we did nothing but argue will always taint the happy memories. Maybe one day we'll be 'real' friends again but until then, good luck...and leave all us poor women alone, you're a menace ;) You know I love you and part of me always will. In the mean time I'll be stealing your best friend every so often for a good gossip in Starbucks :D xxxx
Friday 30 January 2009
Guv Love
I'm ashamed of myself. The one thing from my top weekend in London I forgot and so I'm not mentioning now is I sat on the Gene Genies knee...*melts into a huuuuge puddle of girl goo* Good Times :D
You know when you need to get something off your chest but the words just won't come out? Well I've just attempted to type something four times now and it just isn't coming out right at all.
Maybe I need to clear my head and then it will just come out. Thing is the person who I'd talk to is the one person I can't talk to right now.
Anyway...enough of that.
Went out for dinner with my Grandma and Dad tonight. It was fun. Casa Mia Grande is the modern day equivalent to Luigi's...well I think it is. You've got the Champagne Bar that leads into the restuarant. I don't know if they do Bolly at the bar, I've not looked ;) but I'd be more than happy to go and investigate. Who fancies coming with?
Bit worried about someone but I hope they know if they need to talk to get in touch. In fact there's a few people I'm worried about at the moment. January seems to be a very black month at the moment.
Sending love & hugs to my darlings who need them
xx
You know when you need to get something off your chest but the words just won't come out? Well I've just attempted to type something four times now and it just isn't coming out right at all.
Maybe I need to clear my head and then it will just come out. Thing is the person who I'd talk to is the one person I can't talk to right now.
Anyway...enough of that.
Went out for dinner with my Grandma and Dad tonight. It was fun. Casa Mia Grande is the modern day equivalent to Luigi's...well I think it is. You've got the Champagne Bar that leads into the restuarant. I don't know if they do Bolly at the bar, I've not looked ;) but I'd be more than happy to go and investigate. Who fancies coming with?
Bit worried about someone but I hope they know if they need to talk to get in touch. In fact there's a few people I'm worried about at the moment. January seems to be a very black month at the moment.
Sending love & hugs to my darlings who need them
xx
Thursday 29 January 2009
Wednesday 28 January 2009
I'm wondering if anyone reads my blog...no-one ever comments on it :(
I've done sweet f.a today and I was so tempted to open a bottle of house rubbish then realised I can't drink because of my snexy new tattoo.
Got dinner tomorrow night with my dad and grandma...oh deep joy.
I was planning on spending the day in bed with chick flicks...nay mind
xx
I've done sweet f.a today and I was so tempted to open a bottle of house rubbish then realised I can't drink because of my snexy new tattoo.
Got dinner tomorrow night with my dad and grandma...oh deep joy.
I was planning on spending the day in bed with chick flicks...nay mind
xx
My back hurts :( Don't remember it hurting this much last time I had a tattoo done but...it is in a place where it bleeds out. Which I didn't know. Hence the panic in Casa Mia of 'Oh God, my tattoo is leaking...what do I do?!'
It's all good fun tho!
Awww, someone's just said to me I have a lovely voice which was random and very sweet!
I should go bathe my tattoo and consider going to bed but I'm very comfy sat listening to music and trying to sort my head out with the help of the lovely Miss Munts :)
Which has reminded me, I need to book the hotel for her 30th in February. Can't wait to be reunited with my dirty sewer kittens, love them all to bits.
I'm feeling really upbeat and happy today and I don't know why. Must be something in the tattoo ink lol!
xx
It's all good fun tho!
Awww, someone's just said to me I have a lovely voice which was random and very sweet!
I should go bathe my tattoo and consider going to bed but I'm very comfy sat listening to music and trying to sort my head out with the help of the lovely Miss Munts :)
Which has reminded me, I need to book the hotel for her 30th in February. Can't wait to be reunited with my dirty sewer kittens, love them all to bits.
I'm feeling really upbeat and happy today and I don't know why. Must be something in the tattoo ink lol!
xx
Tuesday 27 January 2009
Monday 26 January 2009
Weekend Frolics
Oh this weekend was FAB!!!
I've lost a rather large chunk of my memory from about 3am onwards...possibly earlier than that, I'm not quite sure.
The things I do remember:-
- Having no sleep from 10am Friday morning to christ knows when this morning
- Meeting some wonderful friends who are all lovely
- Having a tour around London & various A2A locations
- Cool guy from the coach, had me in stitches for most of the journey
- Smooches
- Random American Girl
- A toilet door that looked like book shelves
- Waking up in a bath....the less said about that the better
- Free shots...not such a good thing.
- Having a flirt with the bar man (hence the free shots)
- downing far too many shots of sambuca
- being in Maccy D's at some ungodly hour
Things I can't remember
- Why I was crying...I'm 100% positive it's not for the reason I said when pissed...I blame tiredness and alcohol
- What time I got in at
- Why I thought sambuca was a good idea
- anything after 3am
All in all, was a great weekend and I don't regret one minute of it...except maybe the shots.
Keep getting drunken flashbacks and smirking haha! Really don't think I should elaborate on that one....
Loved meeting the Luigi's Ladies and I really hope there will be another meet soon. Until then I've got Luton next month for my mates 30th, JailBreak in March,Edinburgh in May (hope someone will keep me amused while I'm there...I may go exploring haha), Cuba in October...busy times :D
I've lost a rather large chunk of my memory from about 3am onwards...possibly earlier than that, I'm not quite sure.
The things I do remember:-
- Having no sleep from 10am Friday morning to christ knows when this morning
- Meeting some wonderful friends who are all lovely
- Having a tour around London & various A2A locations
- Cool guy from the coach, had me in stitches for most of the journey
- Smooches
- Random American Girl
- A toilet door that looked like book shelves
- Waking up in a bath....the less said about that the better
- Free shots...not such a good thing.
- Having a flirt with the bar man (hence the free shots)
- downing far too many shots of sambuca
- being in Maccy D's at some ungodly hour
Things I can't remember
- Why I was crying...I'm 100% positive it's not for the reason I said when pissed...I blame tiredness and alcohol
- What time I got in at
- Why I thought sambuca was a good idea
- anything after 3am
All in all, was a great weekend and I don't regret one minute of it...except maybe the shots.
Keep getting drunken flashbacks and smirking haha! Really don't think I should elaborate on that one....
Loved meeting the Luigi's Ladies and I really hope there will be another meet soon. Until then I've got Luton next month for my mates 30th, JailBreak in March,Edinburgh in May (hope someone will keep me amused while I'm there...I may go exploring haha), Cuba in October...busy times :D
Friday 23 January 2009
I'm going to London....
to meet the luigi's ladies,
I'm going to London to meet the luigi's ladies.
I'm concerned cos I'm so organised I've forgotten something to be honest...hmmm. Oh well it's not like I'm away from home for too long.
Will be back Sunday or monday with pics :D
Have a good weekend!
Lis xxxx
P.S Must buy heat magazine...I cna't go to London and not buy it, lol
I'm going to London to meet the luigi's ladies.
I'm concerned cos I'm so organised I've forgotten something to be honest...hmmm. Oh well it's not like I'm away from home for too long.
Will be back Sunday or monday with pics :D
Have a good weekend!
Lis xxxx
P.S Must buy heat magazine...I cna't go to London and not buy it, lol
Meh
Can't sleep....I have to be up in 3 hours and 36 minutes (0454 according to my laptop time) Good Times!!!!
I was reading 'Keeping Faith' by Jodi Picoult and came across something I never knew. The word passion comes from the Latin passio which means to suffer. Sounds about right to me! I'd love to meet someone who's had passion and not had to suffer any kind of pain because of it, pretty sure I'd be more likely to win the lottery if I'm honest.
Argh!! Why am I not tired...this is getting beyond a joke.
In fact in an attempt to bore myself to sleep, I'm gonna fill in one of those random quizzes that you find doing the rounds on facebook/myspace...
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Name: Lisa
Age: 22
Birthday: 22nd September
Eye color: Brown
Hair Color: This bizarre mix of brown with some natural blond highlights
Sign: I was born on the cusp so...Virgo/Libra
height: 5'6"
nickname(s): Lis, Smise, Mama Puds, Lili, Li, Lisa La La Legs, La La Legs, Mucktub, Little Bit (they're all the ones I can think of...no wonder I forget my own name lol)
birth place: Leeds
Favourites
Your all time favorite band: At the moment Theory of a Deadman
Colour: Black/Silver
Movie: The Butterfly Effect
CD: Aerosmith - Nine Lives
Favorite quote: Ian - I'm going celibate
Jeff - What, sell a bit here, sell a bit there?
(ok not a quote with any deep meaning but it made me chuckle when Ian told me about it)
worst
Show of all time: X-Factor
song of all time: The majority of dance stuff is pretty crap
movie of all time: Superbad...wasn't that funny
friend of all time: I would never say in case they read my blog!
movie star of all time: Tom Cruise
CD of all time: Simon Logan's Greatest Wind Ups...it was funny the first time and not very funny after that
holiday of all time: Would be when I went to Cornwall with my mates, been stuck in a car saying 'On Saturday in Somerset' WITH THE ACCENT for 8 HOURS!!! tends to make you go a little crazy, plus when I got home I found out our moglet had gone missing
word association
Heart: beat
house: hold
cat: box
chair: office
wind: tide
lamp: shade
boat: river
ocean: frollicks
floor: laminate
glitter: dust
if you could...
relive one moment in your life what would it be: I don't know...think when my dad gets told he's in remission I'll want to relive that moment for a while.
do one thing before you die what would it be: Bungee Jump
tell someone exactly what you think who would it be: Everyone knows what I think about them...unless it's meant in a bad way then there's no-one
have one super power what would it be: Invisibility...I'd go round scaring people
If you were...
a superhero what would your name be: ...no idea
rich what is one thing you would do: Buy a house in Italy near the coast
to suddenly be stranded on an island what one thing would you want with you?: my phone to ring for help
friends
Funniest: Kay and Emily
Scariest: Sarah...jeez!!
Shyest: Andy
most original: Emily
This or that
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
Coco puffs or count chocula: Coco Puffs...count chocula sound like they'd try to eat you..
Saw or Hostel: Saw...never seen Hostel
Devils rejects or House of 1000 corpses: Neither
tv or movie: Movie
Last questions I swear!
Have you ever...
sang until you were hoarse: Yes
screamed for no reason: No
Hit someone with your car: No, unless you include the unfortunate curb before my driving test (see after the quiz...)
gotten in a car accident: Yes but I wasn't driving...been in two in fact
written a poem: Yes
burned a picture: Yes
gone to a concert: Yes
participated in a Mosh Pit: Yes
No really....this is the end
Do you
Have a significant other: No
drink: Yes
smoke: Yes...I was meant to be stopping in the New Year...ooops
cuss: Far too much
get along with your ex: Yeah 'cept for one guy
get along with your family: Yep
ok...last ones...RANDOM TIME!
Have you ever shot a gun: No
have you ever been on stage: Yes
have you danced on a pole: Yes...I blame the alcohol and Heaven and Smell for having a pole
have you ever wondered what it would be like to be a stripper: Nope
what would your stripper song be: Touch of My Hand - Britney Spears...very appropriate if you look at the lyrics
what's the worst job you can think of: Anything involving blood & guts
whats one quote that sums up your life: ?? I've not found one yet
Whats the funniest thing about you: I dunno but I manage to crack my mates up
whats the one word that sums you up: Boobylicious (thanks Rach)
do you have tattoos: Yes, one but getting my next one done next week!!
do you have piercings: Yeah, ears twice though I'm pretty sure my top holes have healed up
If you could be the opposite sex for one day what would you do: Play with my cock for a bit, adjust myself in public, be as loutish as possible
if you could change your name would you: No
to what: I wouldn't change it
whats one thing you want everyone to know about you that wasn't mentioned: I'm only a little bit crazy and not as crazy as I might appear ;)
how was your childhood: Pretty good then I had to grow up far too quickly
name your last 2 exs: A lady never kisses and tells
describe them: Warm & snuggle-able but a total prick, Cute but geeky
if you and your friends were on an island with no food, who would you eat: I don't know...
how do you want to die: I don't know
What bothers you the most about the world: Violence
what store do you usually spend all your money at: Depends on the mood...
do you believe in the love you see in movies: No, cos we don't know what happens after the credits start
why do you think you were put on this earth: I can't think of a reason...
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So my driving test. Haha, it'll certainly be one to tell the kids (if I have any). I'd already failed my test once for speeding so we're on test number two...my instructor came to pick me up as usual and we headed on the normal route to the test centre. About 2 minutes from my house is a ball ache of a roundabout and I was a tad too close to the curb approaching the roundabout...so close in fact I bent the wheel arch when I hit it. We park up in the car park of Sainsbury's, it's pissing it down and Mark is trying to change the tyre but he only has a space saver one so he drives foot down to the nearest Kwik Fit while I'm sat in the passenger seat having a meltdown.
It all turned out ok in the end because we made it to the test centre with time for me to very quickly practice reverse parking but to this day I have no idea how I passed my test...and with only 6 minors unlike someone I could mention who got 8.
Well it's 0549 and I'm still not tired...fuck fuckity fuckfuckfuck. I guess it's good in a way cos I'll be so tired I'll sleep on the coach to London but I'll be knackered for my interview. Oh well...
I was reading 'Keeping Faith' by Jodi Picoult and came across something I never knew. The word passion comes from the Latin passio which means to suffer. Sounds about right to me! I'd love to meet someone who's had passion and not had to suffer any kind of pain because of it, pretty sure I'd be more likely to win the lottery if I'm honest.
Argh!! Why am I not tired...this is getting beyond a joke.
In fact in an attempt to bore myself to sleep, I'm gonna fill in one of those random quizzes that you find doing the rounds on facebook/myspace...
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Name: Lisa
Age: 22
Birthday: 22nd September
Eye color: Brown
Hair Color: This bizarre mix of brown with some natural blond highlights
Sign: I was born on the cusp so...Virgo/Libra
height: 5'6"
nickname(s): Lis, Smise, Mama Puds, Lili, Li, Lisa La La Legs, La La Legs, Mucktub, Little Bit (they're all the ones I can think of...no wonder I forget my own name lol)
birth place: Leeds
Favourites
Your all time favorite band: At the moment Theory of a Deadman
Colour: Black/Silver
Movie: The Butterfly Effect
CD: Aerosmith - Nine Lives
Favorite quote: Ian - I'm going celibate
Jeff - What, sell a bit here, sell a bit there?
(ok not a quote with any deep meaning but it made me chuckle when Ian told me about it)
worst
Show of all time: X-Factor
song of all time: The majority of dance stuff is pretty crap
movie of all time: Superbad...wasn't that funny
friend of all time: I would never say in case they read my blog!
movie star of all time: Tom Cruise
CD of all time: Simon Logan's Greatest Wind Ups...it was funny the first time and not very funny after that
holiday of all time: Would be when I went to Cornwall with my mates, been stuck in a car saying 'On Saturday in Somerset' WITH THE ACCENT for 8 HOURS!!! tends to make you go a little crazy, plus when I got home I found out our moglet had gone missing
word association
Heart: beat
house: hold
cat: box
chair: office
wind: tide
lamp: shade
boat: river
ocean: frollicks
floor: laminate
glitter: dust
if you could...
relive one moment in your life what would it be: I don't know...think when my dad gets told he's in remission I'll want to relive that moment for a while.
do one thing before you die what would it be: Bungee Jump
tell someone exactly what you think who would it be: Everyone knows what I think about them...unless it's meant in a bad way then there's no-one
have one super power what would it be: Invisibility...I'd go round scaring people
If you were...
a superhero what would your name be: ...no idea
rich what is one thing you would do: Buy a house in Italy near the coast
to suddenly be stranded on an island what one thing would you want with you?: my phone to ring for help
friends
Funniest: Kay and Emily
Scariest: Sarah...jeez!!
Shyest: Andy
most original: Emily
This or that
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
Coco puffs or count chocula: Coco Puffs...count chocula sound like they'd try to eat you..
Saw or Hostel: Saw...never seen Hostel
Devils rejects or House of 1000 corpses: Neither
tv or movie: Movie
Last questions I swear!
Have you ever...
sang until you were hoarse: Yes
screamed for no reason: No
Hit someone with your car: No, unless you include the unfortunate curb before my driving test (see after the quiz...)
gotten in a car accident: Yes but I wasn't driving...been in two in fact
written a poem: Yes
burned a picture: Yes
gone to a concert: Yes
participated in a Mosh Pit: Yes
No really....this is the end
Do you
Have a significant other: No
drink: Yes
smoke: Yes...I was meant to be stopping in the New Year...ooops
cuss: Far too much
get along with your ex: Yeah 'cept for one guy
get along with your family: Yep
ok...last ones...RANDOM TIME!
Have you ever shot a gun: No
have you ever been on stage: Yes
have you danced on a pole: Yes...I blame the alcohol and Heaven and Smell for having a pole
have you ever wondered what it would be like to be a stripper: Nope
what would your stripper song be: Touch of My Hand - Britney Spears...very appropriate if you look at the lyrics
what's the worst job you can think of: Anything involving blood & guts
whats one quote that sums up your life: ?? I've not found one yet
Whats the funniest thing about you: I dunno but I manage to crack my mates up
whats the one word that sums you up: Boobylicious (thanks Rach)
do you have tattoos: Yes, one but getting my next one done next week!!
do you have piercings: Yeah, ears twice though I'm pretty sure my top holes have healed up
If you could be the opposite sex for one day what would you do: Play with my cock for a bit, adjust myself in public, be as loutish as possible
if you could change your name would you: No
to what: I wouldn't change it
whats one thing you want everyone to know about you that wasn't mentioned: I'm only a little bit crazy and not as crazy as I might appear ;)
how was your childhood: Pretty good then I had to grow up far too quickly
name your last 2 exs: A lady never kisses and tells
describe them: Warm & snuggle-able but a total prick, Cute but geeky
if you and your friends were on an island with no food, who would you eat: I don't know...
how do you want to die: I don't know
What bothers you the most about the world: Violence
what store do you usually spend all your money at: Depends on the mood...
do you believe in the love you see in movies: No, cos we don't know what happens after the credits start
why do you think you were put on this earth: I can't think of a reason...
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So my driving test. Haha, it'll certainly be one to tell the kids (if I have any). I'd already failed my test once for speeding so we're on test number two...my instructor came to pick me up as usual and we headed on the normal route to the test centre. About 2 minutes from my house is a ball ache of a roundabout and I was a tad too close to the curb approaching the roundabout...so close in fact I bent the wheel arch when I hit it. We park up in the car park of Sainsbury's, it's pissing it down and Mark is trying to change the tyre but he only has a space saver one so he drives foot down to the nearest Kwik Fit while I'm sat in the passenger seat having a meltdown.
It all turned out ok in the end because we made it to the test centre with time for me to very quickly practice reverse parking but to this day I have no idea how I passed my test...and with only 6 minors unlike someone I could mention who got 8.
Well it's 0549 and I'm still not tired...fuck fuckity fuckfuckfuck. I guess it's good in a way cos I'll be so tired I'll sleep on the coach to London but I'll be knackered for my interview. Oh well...
Wednesday 21 January 2009
This is what my little trip got me....
Who knew kids TV was so entertaining??
Sat in bed and my head is still half asleep, I put BBC2 on as it's the only channel that felt like playing on my freeview box and 'Mister Maker was on. For some reason my sleep deprived brain can't fathom the Mister maker was looking out of the window and a bird shat on his shoulder. This made me take note...since when did they show that on kids TV?
What happened next had me roaring with laughter. The guy looks up, shakes his fist and goes 'YOU DIRTY BIRD!!'. All I could think of was how much he sounded like Russell Brand.
Certainly made me chuckle!
What happened next had me roaring with laughter. The guy looks up, shakes his fist and goes 'YOU DIRTY BIRD!!'. All I could think of was how much he sounded like Russell Brand.
Certainly made me chuckle!
Tuesday 20 January 2009
Could today...yesterday have gotten any worse?!
This is a serious moan post....I won't be offended if it's not read!
Woke up and everything was hunky dory. Postman does his thing and I get a letter from Bradford Council about the interview, open it up to find out that they don't want to see me for a second interview. May as well have 'REJECT' stamped on my forehead. Said on the letter to ring up for reasons why but I don't think I will...Bradford is a ball ache to get to so I guess they did me a favour.
Get in the shower and sat on my bed drying my hair, get up to find myself on the floor...I wasn't drunk but had gotten a dead leg. Got a really nice friction burn on the top of my thigh and my pelvis is killing me because I banged my hip on my bedside table. I did have a giggle once I managed to get up but that's because of the tickly pins and needles I had.
I've now got a killer headache...I can't find anything funny about that tho...
I can't complain because these things happen for a reason. I just don't think I should be trusted to go out on my own...
Woke up and everything was hunky dory. Postman does his thing and I get a letter from Bradford Council about the interview, open it up to find out that they don't want to see me for a second interview. May as well have 'REJECT' stamped on my forehead. Said on the letter to ring up for reasons why but I don't think I will...Bradford is a ball ache to get to so I guess they did me a favour.
Get in the shower and sat on my bed drying my hair, get up to find myself on the floor...I wasn't drunk but had gotten a dead leg. Got a really nice friction burn on the top of my thigh and my pelvis is killing me because I banged my hip on my bedside table. I did have a giggle once I managed to get up but that's because of the tickly pins and needles I had.
I've now got a killer headache...I can't find anything funny about that tho...
I can't complain because these things happen for a reason. I just don't think I should be trusted to go out on my own...
Sunday 18 January 2009
What? What? Whattttt???
They've moved Millennium Magic...from Cardiff, to Edinburgh..what?? Why not England? What have we done to piss off the organisers??
Utter Madness if you ask me! I'm definitely gonna have to have my car before then, I PROMISED Amanda we'd go once I had my licence and I have it now...fat lot of good it's doing me though, I've had it 2 months now and I'm not using it.
My dad (evil being) keeps tempting me to drive his car even though he knows full well I'm not insured!! One of these days I'll just pick up the car keys and go...who'll be laughing then?!
I'm sure I can beg/do sexual favours for one of my mates who are dotted around the country to hide me...I think I've got a plan there :D
Have to go for lunch with my Dad & my Grandma later today, I'm sooooo looking forward to it. I can see me blogging in a few hours saying 'I've told my Grandma I'm a lesbian to stop her from asking me about if I've got a boyfriend' but then I'd get the 'have you got a girlfriend' questions....jeez!
Don't think my Grandma realises that all a girl needs is good friends and a good vibrator. Relationships aren't worth the hassle. Too many good people get hurt.
Utter Madness if you ask me! I'm definitely gonna have to have my car before then, I PROMISED Amanda we'd go once I had my licence and I have it now...fat lot of good it's doing me though, I've had it 2 months now and I'm not using it.
My dad (evil being) keeps tempting me to drive his car even though he knows full well I'm not insured!! One of these days I'll just pick up the car keys and go...who'll be laughing then?!
I'm sure I can beg/do sexual favours for one of my mates who are dotted around the country to hide me...I think I've got a plan there :D
Have to go for lunch with my Dad & my Grandma later today, I'm sooooo looking forward to it. I can see me blogging in a few hours saying 'I've told my Grandma I'm a lesbian to stop her from asking me about if I've got a boyfriend' but then I'd get the 'have you got a girlfriend' questions....jeez!
Don't think my Grandma realises that all a girl needs is good friends and a good vibrator. Relationships aren't worth the hassle. Too many good people get hurt.
Breath of Life
Never had a point of view
'Cause my mind was always someone else's mind
I never had to tell a lie
'Cause I left the choices up to them
Don't know why, but I did
Oh, I want life
Life wants me
To breathe in its love
Take me I'm yours
Now I'm coming up for air
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
I never had to call the tune
'Cause I always drifted with the tide of the moon
I would go out every night
Looking for someone to treat me right
Not a chance, not a hope in this world (world)
Oh, I want life
Life wants me
To breathe in its love
Take me I'm yours (take me)
Now I'm coming up for air (I'm yours)
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
Ooh, ooh
Take me I'm yours (take me)
Now I'm coming up for air (I'm yours)
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
More
Written by Clarke / Bell
One of my favourite songs ever. There's just something about it I can't put my finger or put into words.
'Cause my mind was always someone else's mind
I never had to tell a lie
'Cause I left the choices up to them
Don't know why, but I did
Oh, I want life
Life wants me
To breathe in its love
Take me I'm yours
Now I'm coming up for air
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
I never had to call the tune
'Cause I always drifted with the tide of the moon
I would go out every night
Looking for someone to treat me right
Not a chance, not a hope in this world (world)
Oh, I want life
Life wants me
To breathe in its love
Take me I'm yours (take me)
Now I'm coming up for air (I'm yours)
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
Ooh, ooh
Take me I'm yours (take me)
Now I'm coming up for air (I'm yours)
I'm gonna live my time for the rest of my life
Then I'll be coming back for more
More
Written by Clarke / Bell
One of my favourite songs ever. There's just something about it I can't put my finger or put into words.
Saturday 17 January 2009
Just a quicky....
Ohhh Matron!
Now I've got the Carry On moment out of my system this is honestly just a quick blog post. It's ten to fooking four!
I'm not impressed. The writing bug has bitten me :(
I know a few people who'd be...happy? Maybe? Hmm, I'm not. I need my sleep but sleeps sweet oblivion seems to be evading me recently. A lot of it is stress from not knowing when I'm going to get back to work as well as still not knowing exactly what happened during my surgery and what will be said about that.
I got some good news today so I'll be able to go to London next Saturday and meet some fab people, I'm looking forward to it and really hope all the regulars can make it.
The weirdest thing happened earlier tonight, I was talking online to some lovely ladies and somehow the conversation ended up being on fanfics and it turns out another person used to go on the same yahoo group I did. It's madness, utter madness and in some bizarre way it doesn't surprise me. After all I met a wonderful group of ladies in my Endo sisters and I'll be meeting a group of lovelies from Luigi's next weekend. Good times.
I was speaking to Jo earlier too and we're definitely gonna head up to Edinburgh on 30th April. Should be a laugh; beer and good company what more does a girl need in life? I am ever so slightly scared of going to Lindisfarne and getting stuck on the island but my sense of adventure is telling me to stop being a wuss and enjoy life. Cos that's what life is all about isn't it? Living life and enjoying every minute of it. One minute you're here, the next you're not. Make the most of each and every single moment, try something new every day, do something that scares you. Just don't get to the end of your life and regret not doing something. I don't wanna look back 5 years down the line when I'm thinking of settling down with a nice man (or woman) and think there's so much I wanted to do and I didn't get to do it.
This year is shaping up to be a pretty mad one. There's the meet next weekend, the endo meet in Leeds in February, the JailBreak in March (www.jailbreak2009.co.uk - please sign up!!!!), Edinburgh in April, The Luigi's camping holiday (I know some of you read this blog girls and WE.ARE.DOING.IT!!!!) in the summer and possibly Cuba with Jo in October.
I'm itching to go to the Edinburgh Festival too in August so it's all going a bit mad this year on the travel front. I really do want to go to Cuba too and that's the one I hope doesn't fall through. God knows I could do with some sun, sea, sand and fun! It's not just that aspect that has an appeal for me. I'd love to be able to tell my kids I went to Cuba while Castro was still living.
Sitting here thinking about it, there's a few places I want to go; Goa, Italy, America, Australia, Go around Europe and most of all I am desperate to go back to Paris. I fell in love with the city when I went in high school.
Anyone fancy being my travel buddy??
xxx
Now I've got the Carry On moment out of my system this is honestly just a quick blog post. It's ten to fooking four!
I'm not impressed. The writing bug has bitten me :(
I know a few people who'd be...happy? Maybe? Hmm, I'm not. I need my sleep but sleeps sweet oblivion seems to be evading me recently. A lot of it is stress from not knowing when I'm going to get back to work as well as still not knowing exactly what happened during my surgery and what will be said about that.
I got some good news today so I'll be able to go to London next Saturday and meet some fab people, I'm looking forward to it and really hope all the regulars can make it.
The weirdest thing happened earlier tonight, I was talking online to some lovely ladies and somehow the conversation ended up being on fanfics and it turns out another person used to go on the same yahoo group I did. It's madness, utter madness and in some bizarre way it doesn't surprise me. After all I met a wonderful group of ladies in my Endo sisters and I'll be meeting a group of lovelies from Luigi's next weekend. Good times.
I was speaking to Jo earlier too and we're definitely gonna head up to Edinburgh on 30th April. Should be a laugh; beer and good company what more does a girl need in life? I am ever so slightly scared of going to Lindisfarne and getting stuck on the island but my sense of adventure is telling me to stop being a wuss and enjoy life. Cos that's what life is all about isn't it? Living life and enjoying every minute of it. One minute you're here, the next you're not. Make the most of each and every single moment, try something new every day, do something that scares you. Just don't get to the end of your life and regret not doing something. I don't wanna look back 5 years down the line when I'm thinking of settling down with a nice man (or woman) and think there's so much I wanted to do and I didn't get to do it.
This year is shaping up to be a pretty mad one. There's the meet next weekend, the endo meet in Leeds in February, the JailBreak in March (www.jailbreak2009.co.uk - please sign up!!!!), Edinburgh in April, The Luigi's camping holiday (I know some of you read this blog girls and WE.ARE.DOING.IT!!!!) in the summer and possibly Cuba with Jo in October.
I'm itching to go to the Edinburgh Festival too in August so it's all going a bit mad this year on the travel front. I really do want to go to Cuba too and that's the one I hope doesn't fall through. God knows I could do with some sun, sea, sand and fun! It's not just that aspect that has an appeal for me. I'd love to be able to tell my kids I went to Cuba while Castro was still living.
Sitting here thinking about it, there's a few places I want to go; Goa, Italy, America, Australia, Go around Europe and most of all I am desperate to go back to Paris. I fell in love with the city when I went in high school.
Anyone fancy being my travel buddy??
xxx
Friday 16 January 2009
>:s
I'm officially a loser...Instead of being tucked in bed (all on my tod) I'm sat putting new albums on my iTunes.
Theory of a Deadman...Mmmmmm! Love them! Sound like Nickelback did when they first started out.
I think to much. I've noticed that recently, I can be sat and will be deep in thought and then couldn't tell you what I was actually thinking about. Couple of people have been getting far more head space than the actually deserve.
Anyway, some Random Facts about me!
1. Sapphire Clair - Clair is my middle name (yuck) and Sapphire is my birthstone
2. I have slept with someone who was married but I didn't know until his missus was ringing me up...shiiiiiiiiit!
3. I'm 22, 23 in September (22nd, send flowers to.....)
4. I have some weird taste in music
5. I have the horn...Kay you say one word about that and I will not only slap you, but I'll insult the French shit you call a car ;) I'm kiddng Stevie is an awesome little car!
6. I weighed 6lbs 11 ounces when I was born
7. I love Romcoms, give me a film with a happy ending and some slush any day!
8. I miss not having someone to snuggle up to on a night
9. I still see things and go to the person who it reminds me of then stop myself from texting them.
10. I smoke faaaaaar too much
11. I want to live in Italy for a year
12. I love my high heels
13. I'd rather stay at home cuddled up instead of going on the lash in town
14. I always seem to fall for the people who are guaranteed to hurt me
15. I'm terrified that I won't be able to have kids
16. I really need to visit Em in York
17. I need to go out for a night of Vodka & Red bull in Walkabout with Kay
18. I *should* meet up with Amanda, not seen her since the summer
19. I really do think too much
20. I need to sort my head out
21. I have the most intense period pain at the moment
22. I NEED to go get my new tattoo done asap!!
Lis xx
Theory of a Deadman...Mmmmmm! Love them! Sound like Nickelback did when they first started out.
I think to much. I've noticed that recently, I can be sat and will be deep in thought and then couldn't tell you what I was actually thinking about. Couple of people have been getting far more head space than the actually deserve.
Anyway, some Random Facts about me!
1. Sapphire Clair - Clair is my middle name (yuck) and Sapphire is my birthstone
2. I have slept with someone who was married but I didn't know until his missus was ringing me up...shiiiiiiiiit!
3. I'm 22, 23 in September (22nd, send flowers to.....)
4. I have some weird taste in music
5. I have the horn...Kay you say one word about that and I will not only slap you, but I'll insult the French shit you call a car ;) I'm kiddng Stevie is an awesome little car!
6. I weighed 6lbs 11 ounces when I was born
7. I love Romcoms, give me a film with a happy ending and some slush any day!
8. I miss not having someone to snuggle up to on a night
9. I still see things and go to the person who it reminds me of then stop myself from texting them.
10. I smoke faaaaaar too much
11. I want to live in Italy for a year
12. I love my high heels
13. I'd rather stay at home cuddled up instead of going on the lash in town
14. I always seem to fall for the people who are guaranteed to hurt me
15. I'm terrified that I won't be able to have kids
16. I really need to visit Em in York
17. I need to go out for a night of Vodka & Red bull in Walkabout with Kay
18. I *should* meet up with Amanda, not seen her since the summer
19. I really do think too much
20. I need to sort my head out
21. I have the most intense period pain at the moment
22. I NEED to go get my new tattoo done asap!!
Lis xx
Thursday 15 January 2009
Well after not thinking I'd make it to the interview I did :D The girl I saw was lovely and confirmed I have a job interview next Friday...yay!! She also told me she'd put two other people forward and I'm the strongest candidate of the three which is always nice to know. So got lots of company swotting to do. Still waiting to hear about the really fab job and the one I interviewed for on Tuesday.
Oh Noes!!
I've been awake for half an hour, I need to leave my house at 3 to go for an interview....I have mad hair and need a shower and instead of getting on I'm sat here blogging. Hmmmmm. Not good!!
I've been having the strangest dreams lately about someone who I thought I'd got out of my head but they're still there, I don't think it helps that I was talking to them on Saturday night about stuff and it's left me thinking. To be honest I wish they'd fuck off out of my head.
I've been having the strangest dreams lately about someone who I thought I'd got out of my head but they're still there, I don't think it helps that I was talking to them on Saturday night about stuff and it's left me thinking. To be honest I wish they'd fuck off out of my head.
Wednesday 14 January 2009
:(
Having a slightly rubbish day today. Oh the joys of being a woman...men have it easy!! Feel kinda guilty cos I cancelled my plans with Lee today but I just couldn't leave the house. Don't worry I'm not going anymore crazy than I usually am but at the moment it's crazy with a hint of anger. Normal (well, normal for me) services will be resumed shortly.
On a positive note I have two followers now, welcome to the dark side...we have cookies :)
My mum, bless her, has bought me the Ashes to Ashes boxset from amazon. I sent her the link to the fic I've been writing and she's hoping it will encourage me to write some more. I really think I should now but we'll see. I kinda fell into writing the fic, I'd been reading a lot of the fabulous stuff on fanfiction.net and got inspired. Maybe I need to read some more fic to get the ol' juices flowing.
I've got an interview with an agency tomorrow at 4pm which is always fun. I just hope they don't ask me to do a typing test since I'm still not used to these nail extensions. Tis my own fault, if I hadn't bitten my nails so much they wouldn't have looked so bad that I ended up having to have extensions to make them look decent.
The interview yesterday was a disaster. On the letter it said 'an initial, informal interview' and it just wasn't. I answered three pages of A4 questions while the panel of interviewers were scribbling away. I'd had an hours sleep the night before and they had said they were seeing a lot of candidates so I won't know if I've got through to the next stage of interviews until the start of next week.
My friend has just text me something which has amused me and so I'm going to share it with you:
Some random facts...
An elephant shits half it's weight in 2 days
A mans penis is three times the length of his thumb
2 multiplied by 2 equals for
A woman would have finished reading this by now, but a man would still be checking the size of his thumbs
And now another friend has just text me, lucky cow is off to Sri Lanka for 3 weeks at the end of this month. I'm still hopeful she'll pack me in her suitcase but if not the I'm definately going to need a job because I need to go on holiday. Get away from the shithole that Leeds is and just chill out. Hopefully I'll be going to Cuba with my mate Jo and her beautiful little boy Oliver in October but things are never guarenteed so I'll wait and see.
So if by any chance a rich millionaire is reading this blog...fancy helping a girl out with a bit of Sun, sea and sand??
On a positive note I have two followers now, welcome to the dark side...we have cookies :)
My mum, bless her, has bought me the Ashes to Ashes boxset from amazon. I sent her the link to the fic I've been writing and she's hoping it will encourage me to write some more. I really think I should now but we'll see. I kinda fell into writing the fic, I'd been reading a lot of the fabulous stuff on fanfiction.net and got inspired. Maybe I need to read some more fic to get the ol' juices flowing.
I've got an interview with an agency tomorrow at 4pm which is always fun. I just hope they don't ask me to do a typing test since I'm still not used to these nail extensions. Tis my own fault, if I hadn't bitten my nails so much they wouldn't have looked so bad that I ended up having to have extensions to make them look decent.
The interview yesterday was a disaster. On the letter it said 'an initial, informal interview' and it just wasn't. I answered three pages of A4 questions while the panel of interviewers were scribbling away. I'd had an hours sleep the night before and they had said they were seeing a lot of candidates so I won't know if I've got through to the next stage of interviews until the start of next week.
My friend has just text me something which has amused me and so I'm going to share it with you:
Some random facts...
An elephant shits half it's weight in 2 days
A mans penis is three times the length of his thumb
2 multiplied by 2 equals for
A woman would have finished reading this by now, but a man would still be checking the size of his thumbs
And now another friend has just text me, lucky cow is off to Sri Lanka for 3 weeks at the end of this month. I'm still hopeful she'll pack me in her suitcase but if not the I'm definately going to need a job because I need to go on holiday. Get away from the shithole that Leeds is and just chill out. Hopefully I'll be going to Cuba with my mate Jo and her beautiful little boy Oliver in October but things are never guarenteed so I'll wait and see.
So if by any chance a rich millionaire is reading this blog...fancy helping a girl out with a bit of Sun, sea and sand??
Tuesday 13 January 2009
Hmmm
Why am I not tired?? I have had an hours sleep thanks to interview jitters. I completely and totally screwed up aforementioned interview.
I'm not in a blogging mood tonight :(
I'm not in a blogging mood tonight :(
Interview Jitters
As above, I have some major interview jitters at the moment. I can't pinpoint exactly why I feel so out of sorts but I do.
It's for a company I've temped for in the past so the interview should be a breeze but I kept in touch with a few of my work mates from there and one of them mentioned about 28 people had applied for the job openings. I'm just hoping I'll measure up. OK, it's not exactly convenient, it's the next city over and it's a long commute to and from work but any job is better than no job.
You can tell my head state is bad when the music that usually makes me want to have a boogie isn't working.
Not done a lot today really. Managed to get my new iPod set up which is pretty cool...I have music on my laptop!!! Didn't get my nails done, the girl had to cancel so getting them done tomorrow instead, I apologise for any typos in my blog tomorrow night (well tonight now I guess)as I'll be typing with nice long nails!
Suppose I should go get some sleep sooner rather than later, I need to be up at 6am...eek!
It's for a company I've temped for in the past so the interview should be a breeze but I kept in touch with a few of my work mates from there and one of them mentioned about 28 people had applied for the job openings. I'm just hoping I'll measure up. OK, it's not exactly convenient, it's the next city over and it's a long commute to and from work but any job is better than no job.
You can tell my head state is bad when the music that usually makes me want to have a boogie isn't working.
Not done a lot today really. Managed to get my new iPod set up which is pretty cool...I have music on my laptop!!! Didn't get my nails done, the girl had to cancel so getting them done tomorrow instead, I apologise for any typos in my blog tomorrow night (well tonight now I guess)as I'll be typing with nice long nails!
Suppose I should go get some sleep sooner rather than later, I need to be up at 6am...eek!
Sunday 11 January 2009
Sunday Night Blues
Well the first full week of 2009 is now coming to a close. I wonder how many people have already broken their resolutions?
I didn't really make any resolutions this year. In fact the only one I've made is to get a job *hopefully* before February. So in that hope I've been whoring myself around agencies, making my CV sound much more impressive than it actually is, printing off reams of information from the Inland Revenue and then trying to stuff as much of the info into my poor, tired brain as I can so it looks like I know what I'm talking about when I go for interviews.
The problem is, there are so many different forms used in Payroll, you have a split second to rack your brains trying to remember which is which.
At the moment I'm attempting to live, breathe, eat and sleep the job. I've been put forward for a fantastic job at a wonderful company and the starting salary isn't to be sniffed at! I not only need to prove my skills as a whizz at Payroll but I also need to show the company that it is my life at the moment and that even though I do have other things in the pipeline, the company appear to want someone who is a sycophant!
As well as job hunting, I'm also recovering after surgery before Christmas. It wasn't anything too drastic and I feel about 90% normal again. So trying to take things easy as well as madly looking for a job...not a good mix me thinks.
I've got a reasonably busy week this week. Getting my nails done tomorrow as recently I seem to have bitten mine to buggery, I have an interview at a company I worked for previously as a temp at 8.30am on Tuesday and meeting a friend for gossip and coffee on Wednesday. Plus I also need to have time to study up on Payroll info/Company info and be available for interview if any should come up.
Anyone on my twitter, will have seen that I tweeted I'm very proud of someone at the moment, that person would be my Mum. She got very, very good marks on an assignment.
I didn't really make any resolutions this year. In fact the only one I've made is to get a job *hopefully* before February. So in that hope I've been whoring myself around agencies, making my CV sound much more impressive than it actually is, printing off reams of information from the Inland Revenue and then trying to stuff as much of the info into my poor, tired brain as I can so it looks like I know what I'm talking about when I go for interviews.
The problem is, there are so many different forms used in Payroll, you have a split second to rack your brains trying to remember which is which.
At the moment I'm attempting to live, breathe, eat and sleep the job. I've been put forward for a fantastic job at a wonderful company and the starting salary isn't to be sniffed at! I not only need to prove my skills as a whizz at Payroll but I also need to show the company that it is my life at the moment and that even though I do have other things in the pipeline, the company appear to want someone who is a sycophant!
As well as job hunting, I'm also recovering after surgery before Christmas. It wasn't anything too drastic and I feel about 90% normal again. So trying to take things easy as well as madly looking for a job...not a good mix me thinks.
I've got a reasonably busy week this week. Getting my nails done tomorrow as recently I seem to have bitten mine to buggery, I have an interview at a company I worked for previously as a temp at 8.30am on Tuesday and meeting a friend for gossip and coffee on Wednesday. Plus I also need to have time to study up on Payroll info/Company info and be available for interview if any should come up.
Anyone on my twitter, will have seen that I tweeted I'm very proud of someone at the moment, that person would be my Mum. She got very, very good marks on an assignment.
Oooops!
I've not blogged for ages!!
This is a crime so appalling, I should be shot! You'd think since I hadn't blogged for a while I'd actually have something interesting to post for whoever (if anyone) is actually reading this blog but I don't...
I'm working on writing something completely original, so watch this space.
I'm still twenty-something and still single so not that much has changed in that respect. I'm desperately job hunting at the moment.
I'm really struggling with what to write, think I need to do some Daily Meme's to get the juices flowing...if you pardon the pun....
xx
This is a crime so appalling, I should be shot! You'd think since I hadn't blogged for a while I'd actually have something interesting to post for whoever (if anyone) is actually reading this blog but I don't...
I'm working on writing something completely original, so watch this space.
I'm still twenty-something and still single so not that much has changed in that respect. I'm desperately job hunting at the moment.
I'm really struggling with what to write, think I need to do some Daily Meme's to get the juices flowing...if you pardon the pun....
xx
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